LIfe in a fuzzy haze

Every now and then when I am either doing something or talking to someone I feel like I am a robot going through the motions, like I don't really have control of my body, and my vision gets all cloudy and fuzzy. Maybe it's the medication I'm taking, I have no clue.

Aside from that, work is going allright, we're in a recession, people are losing their homes, and I work with the homeless population, unfortunately I have to say "Business is Booming". Every day it seems like there's a brand new homeless person, or family coming into my facility asking for assistance. I wonder with the bailout to all these super corporations, where is the bailout to the average American person?

LOve life, is still nonexistant, haven't really met anyone, and I haven't really been trying. When I do go out with friends, I don't go out to look for someone, I just go out to have a good time, if I meet someone cool, if i don't not a big deal. I'm probably need ready to get back into the saddle again anyways. I enjoy being selfish and just worrying about me.

Post Break-up

It's been quite a while since I've posted on here, but i'll just give you a quick rundown on what's been going on in my so called life the past few years, sorta like an 80's montage but with depressing music.

Girlfriend and i moved in together in a nice little place in Long Beach. I got a job at a non profit organization in south central/downtown LA. I got diagnosed with PTSD. I went through a few depression episodes, i get dumped. Move back in with my parents. Drank for a while, stopped taking my medication, stopped seeing my therapist and doctor, was going on a downward spiral.

One day I wake up and decide I don't want to be depressed, angry and resentful towards the world. I see my doctor, my therapist, and am now taking it one day at a time.