Bukowski and Hemingway had women...

*warning* I was under the influence of alcohol when I wrote this.

For one of the first times in my life I have felt the need for companionship. Maybe it was due to the two couples I was hanging out with that were literally spooning on the couches AT THE BAR and the fact that I had no single friends to talk to.

I usually can handle couples, Ive been doing it for a loong loong time and im used to being the lone single guy of the group but this time I actually felt a need for companionship. Someone I can share my awesomeness with, someone I can share my drink with and someone I can Karoake duet with(we'll sing f*cked up songs like Whiskey Lullaby).

I've always felt the need for solitude and never desired being tied down. I preferred being the lonely guy but im starting to feel that I am closing myself off to life. After all, Bukoski and Hemingway had women in their lives, perhaps I should too!!

Bucket List and what not

The Bucket list movie with Nicholsan and Freeman was not that great but it brought about the idea into the limelight that we all do and should have lists of things we want to do before we kick the bucket. I am going to talk a little bit of a few of the things I have on my dead list.

*Stand up Comedy-Prolly at the top, who doesn't wanna go on stage and make fun of every day life, people, politicians and the crowd watching that night. I'm not looking to make a career of it, I just think it would be something fun to do! Plus it takes majore balls to go up in front of random strangers and make an ass of yourself. To be honest I find this more exhilerating thant bungee jumping or sky diving.

*Climb Mt. Everest-no explaining needed. Have you not seen Cliffhanger with Sly Stallone, not only is that movie freakin AWESOME but it's a pretty decent suspenful movie!! The acting isn't great and sometimes the scenes look like soundstages but it's ok, the movie rocks!! But yea back to Everest, it's a man VS wild thing, overcoming mother nature, basically make her my f*ckin b*tch!!

Thats about it for now, unfortunately I dont have many things on my bucketlist, I mean I've experienced a good amount now in the 30 years I've been on this earth. From game winning goals in hockey to participating in the invasion of a small country and I won't even get into the party/drinking scene, I'll save that for next time!!

Off and on off and on and being alone

I am completely afraid to look at my previous posts to count the times I have said that I will start posting more often or that I will set a schedule for me to do it. Les just get out it out in the air, I AM A FLAKE! Well no completely, just when it comes to this. Ok so here's my actual blog on being alone.

I have no issue being alone. I was the youngest in my household and there was/is a HUGE age gap between me and my three older brothers, i was the baby of the family. So part of my childhood I felt like an only child because I was the only child living in the house, everyone else were adults. I would go off in my imaginary world and do things alone. Don't get me wrong I played with the kids in the neighborhood, but they weren't like me and didn't think like me (no, I'm not gay). The only way I could explain it was that I maybe had a conscious, or I could think outside of myself, maybe I had self realization at an early age. Also, because I was always around older people I matured more quickly.

Fast forward to now, I am sort of well rounded. I have "friends". Although there are very few I would call for help if I was stranded somewhere. In general I enjoy being alone with m thoughts. I'll occasionally go out with people but then I have to recharge my social juices and spend some time isolated from everyone else. Some people can't handle solitude and isolation, me on the other hand, I thrive in it!!!

I'm not like weird awkward antisocial, I'm more like weird, talented, artist, don't talk to me because I got stuff going on antisocial.

It's been a while.....

NO NO NO, I'm not talking about the Staind song, (god forbid I do). It's been quite sometime since I've posted on here and I should post here sooner to clear my soul up. So here it goes.

Im still working graveyard at the homeless shelter in LA. I recently went to Vegas and Laughlin, which were quite relaxing trips. I haven't really been drinking too much. I am slowly regaining control of my financess, unfortunately dental work and is eating up alot of dough.

Still single, not dating anyone, and really just trying to focus on ME. It's weird I've been on one of those "self realization" movie kicks lately, Sorta like Stranger Than Fiction with Will Ferrel, one saying that sticks out is "You're never too old for space camp", that right there says it all!!!

I have a summer class (College Algebra for Business Calculus) coming up next work, I am not too excited about it especially since it's my worst subject. Wish me luck!!!

I am attempting to take control of my life and deciding Which path to take. Will a trip to the old world clear my mind and soul?

I fear I am losing massive amounts of sanity, will update as soon as I regain it