The home I've only visited....

How do you visit a place and all of a sudden feel like the puzzle has been put together and is now complete?    Leaving home knowing it wasn't really your home only to find it later on in life on a whim holiday trip?     Can anyone answer me?  After X amount of years living in suburbia Orange County, I can definitely say, this is NOT the place.

During one of my walks around the Upper West Side, I was listening to Talking Heads song This Must Be The Place (Naive Melody)  and it all connected and made sense and my gut for once in my life spoke to me and repeated the words, "This Must Be The Place"

I think Frank Sinatra said it best, "I want to be a part of it New York, New York"

I don't wear flip flops, I don't go to the beach.  I enjoy museums, opera, food, and most importantly diversity!!   I enjoy hearing Russian on my left, Spanish on my right, Mandarin in front of me and some language I have no clue where it's from behind me.  
I like the fact that reading isn't some weird thing, it's a thing that New Yorkers do, Whether its on the subway or on a sunny day in Central Park.

I know to some people Orange County is paradise, good for them!!!  I am glad they found their piece of paradise. Me on the other hand know it's in the concrete jungle.  It's just going to take a lil while to get there.
Finish school, move, and enjoy life.    Till then, I'll just watch as many New York movies as possible.

No new years resolution

Well 2013 ended not like as I would have liked, but it ended on a decent note now on to 2014.   I am pretty excited for what the new year will bring.  New adventures, self improvement, and perhaps some insight into life and what it's all about.

I ended the year in New York City to get away from the sun and laid-back casual California attitude.  Maybe it's my military background or perhaps I'm just a traditional/conservative (not politically) type person.  I prefer being well dressed versus cargo shorts, flip flops and a tank top.  ANYWAYS,  NYC was an eye opening experience.  The people, the culture, the food, and the energy within the city is just plain amazing and I can't wait to get back.

While I was there gearing up for New Years Eve I began pondering the prior year and what I had accomplished. There's no point in looking at the things i didn't accomplish so I didn't bother spending any time on it.  Goal wise 2014 is a year I am not too sure about. I have one main goal, Do awesome at school.  I have other small goals that I would like to accomplish but that's my main number #1 goal that i am putting all my attention on.  I have also begun to look at myself and how I can improve the things I dislike about myself, well more like the areas that I am not good at.  Things like public speaking, improving my social skills, and working on improving my overall attitude towards life.   I am always comparing myself to others and I know it is wrong.  There is no "life" yardstick that all of us are measured on.  We each have a yardstick made for each of us.  So my yardstick isn't the same as yours.  I want to improve the way I manage my time. Too many times I find myself spending hours watching Netflix or just watching movie trailers of upcoming theater releases, that's all time I could be spending doing something to improve myself.  So I want to set up time blocks with the goal of improving my time management and to use my time more efficiently.

I am not too worried about the people I am surrounded with, most of the negativity is gone,  the important ones are around and support me in my endeavors.  Of course I would like more friends that are into the same things as I am.  Things like Tech, Finance, films, and travel are things I enjoy and am looking for more people who enjoy those topics.  But I'm not actively searching for them, I am just going to do my thing and hopefully I'll meet people along the way.