thinkin

So let me start off with what happened yesterday that got me all "emo" today. I went to my friend's parents birthday in Newport Beach. After drinking, beer, vodka, tequila, and finally whiskey, I became pretty waasted. I was planning on sleeping in my car since I couldn't drive but decided to take a walk along the shore.

I took off my shoes, rolled up my pants and walked around in the water for about 30 minutes. Lots of things ran through my mind at that time. What is life? Why am I here? What am I doing with my life? Why am I single? Why am I a screwup in certain parts of my life? Then I started staring into the deep black ocean, contemplating jumping off the Balboa Pier to see if I could swim to shore. Debating on where I should move to, and only to tell a handful of people.

And then the idea of quitting booze came in my mind.

If I quit drinking, then I would have to stop going to bars, maybe even stop hanging out with my friends who drink(which is pretty much all of them)